i think a subway sandwich and a cup of gongcha makes a perfect match! :)

and i just have to say it again. and again. 

self reminder, my job is not to make everyone happy.
i dont know why i always ended up with the more difficult job than any other people. or maybe the problem lies in me. i don't know, not the first time, second time but third!

oh well hakuna matata, i'm sure it's for the better me. i sure hope.
love yourself more. a lil more.
love. yourself.
prioritize.

inflammation

for those who have heard me whining about my backache for the past one week, am sure you're not new to my battle against the evil one. to top it up, i went to the dentist today to get my molar fixed. and guess what???

the dentist says my pulp is inflamed. (^-^)
with my back muscle inflamed, i have two doses of anti-inflammation medication to finish.
hot stuff. 

word of the week: inflammation! = (

because you are a friend that matters a lot to me. because no one knows me like you do. because no one sees certain things eye-to-eye with me like you do. because we still care, that we'll continue to be great pretenders.

i wish someday, we will speak about the unspoken. 10 years. 20 years.someday.

This Little Light of Mine

It was really awesome that Glee did this song. A song I started singing since primary school days until today, during occasional guiding events; a heart warming song that brings back good old memories of girl guiding days.

And I shall dedicate this to all my guiding sisters and friends out there!
Let the little light in you shine! :)

eat pray love

i guess part of growing up allows you to see things with better clarity. people get into a relationship with many different reasons, and i am in no position to say what is right or wrong. i can only choose for myself, how i want to live my life - although at some point in time i wonder if i've made the right decision for myself. if given another choice, i will still choose to fall the way i did, because to love is not to own and when things are not turning out the way you thought it should, that is when you learn and get to know yourself better. i will never know how much i could love, if not for you. but it wasn't easy.

a week back, i was a little disappointed knowing that things will never be the same anymore. it wasn't as heartbreaking as it was the last time, just a slight cut on my previous wound. today, as I watched the enlightening piece, "eat pray love" I kind of thought perhaps it was time for me to move on for real.

when i miss you, when i think of you, i'll send you love and light, and then drop it.
-eat,pray,love-

perhaps someday, i will write a book too. and when that day comes, i will give credit to this author, mr wong chai kee. he is no god of the authors, but he did inspire me in some ways and that matters. he was the first author (of the books that I have read) that I have met.

the most heartwarming part about the meeting was when my blog post about his book was featured during one of his sessions on writing a memoir. I walked to him after his talk, complimenting his work and own up to the blog post; we were both overwhelm with joy and surprises. and by the way,the lady sitting next to me throughout the talk was his wife and she was from penang! what a pleasant surprise isn't it! :)

his message to the people who wants to write, people who wants to write a memoir, was just to write, because only you know your story and everyone has a story worth sharing.

and i will write to elizabeth gilbert to tell her that durian does not taste like dirty feet at all, NEVER! durian is LOVE! :)

That lil laugh that I needed for the day.

The event scheduled for tomorrow is a team-building event at the water sports centre.

Mr A : I think I want to bring my porn-show along, but I have no time to watch my porn-show.
Ms B : Huh??? Why you want to bring porn-show tomorrow?
Mr A : So I wont get wet la!
Ms C : You'll get wet anyways!
Ms B : Wait, what did you say again? Watch your porn show?
Mr A : What porn show? PONCHO la! WASH my PONCHO! What are you thinking??

Ms B : .....

it feels kind of peaceful tonight (before mr cough decides to break the peace and announce his existence), spending time with i, me & myself.

sometimes solitude is bliss. i simply love spending time in this lil cosy room of mine reading on my bed, listening to westlife with the sound of the pouring rain in the background, my window wide open inviting the cool breeze into the room, with a good view of the sky and the neighbourhood from the ninth floor.

of late, i have been enjoying the company of myself, it was good to feel more connected to myself. guess the transition was all for the better, i am kind of glad afterall the turmoil, i made the decision to let certain things go and move on; true to the saying, you'll never know until you try.

two months into my new job, there's good and bad but i guess i have nothing to complain about because it has been a fulfilling one thus far. things are slowly falling into shape, and i am kind of excited about the projects that i am working on, things related to renewables that i've always wanted to do! power generation, electric vehicle, solar power, renewable energy; all for the green cause! =)

to top it up, i think that my lady-chem-engineer-manager is cool cause she goes into the meeting with a bunch of sexist male engineers and kick asses! oh well, it's afterall a male dominating industry!

was at the building of robert bosch today for a visit, and ended up at their gallery. and guess what, i was all excited when i saw their display of tools! things that i was familiar with once upon a time. felt as if i met my long lost friends; the cordless drill, the circular saw, jig saw and reciprocating saw! secretly deep inside, it feels good knowing i could handle these tools. some instances, i really wonder if i have more testosterones in me.

and throughout this period of self-contemplating, it is clearer to me now what that i want and not. i dont know who-how-when-what-where things are gonna bring me to, but i guess i will just have to remind myself, what life should be all about and keep going.

peace out...

i dont even know much about her until the day she passed away, but i teared up reading the eulogies written for her. i guess, the same applies to many; we simply can relate to the emotions because it's all about love.

"love is the only rational act. love wins, love always win."
- Tuesdays with Morrie-

today, for the first time in my life i helped granny to shower and i thought it's kind of beautiful. it was all heart warming thoughts, with more and more reflections about life.

now that i am readin 'Tuesdays with Morrie', i cant help but to relate to all the small lil things mentioned in the book.